So here it is, in writing – I’m kind of a mess. I was talking to my blogger friend Liv the other day about catching mistakes in a blog post after it’s been live for a while (another great trait of mine haha sorrrry) and instead of getting really upset or stressed about it, I shrugged it off and said something that is totally me, “Oh well, it is what it is, being a mess is kind of part of my brand”.

My point of telling you this is not to make you feel bad for me, or laugh at me (okay, that’s totally the point, and you totally can, because I am and because its pretty funny) but to give you a little insight into this weird thing I call my life. Pandora has just made the wise decision to play something empowering like “who run the world, girls, GIRLS” or “these flashing lights will inspire you” or maybe just the every popular “Hey now, hey noYep, One second you’re on top, the next you plummet, with your flaws exposed feeling pretty deflated – see roller coaster. One second you literally feel on top of the world, usually for me it’s when I’m walking, no strutting down the street feeling invincible, wearing something awesome. Living in New York is a constant roller coaster ride, ups and downs and the city pulls you all around. Anyways, don’t worry today’s post isn’t about Grey’s Anatomy (well, isn’t all about Grey’s Anatomy) it’s also about life, and ups and downs and other really deep stuff like that so you’re totally going to want to read along gosh about to get real real…. Someone once told me the carousel never stops turning …Īnd by someone, I mean Merrideth Grey, in a recent Grey’s Anatomy episode… you know, the one after Derek dies (serious sad face) and I’m pretty sure I’m like the only person who still watches Grey’s … but like whatever, Derek died okay, and it was really, really sad, so sad that my friend sent me the best snap of her ugly crying after the eppisode haha it may have been the best moment of my life.

Color me courtney brother trent died